I have decided to start blogging about my journey back to me. That may seem like a strange statement, but I know there are some out there that would completely understand it. I was trying to think back to the last time I felt like myself and I honestly couldn’t remember.
I know my life changed 4 years ago when I saw the picture of the cutest kitten and everything said I had to have her. I am normally allergic to cats, but she was meant to be because I am not allergic to her. In fact, when I am stressed or having a hard time breathing I can burry my face in her fur and within minutes I am relaxed and breathing normally. Spontaneity has left my life; I now have a fur baby to think of when making plans. I am absolutely fine with that. I love playing hide and seek with her, but my favorite part of the day is snuggling with her. As a kitten she would lay under my neck and as an adult she still tries. We both love a lazy Saturday morning. I will wake up with her snuggled up next to me and I hate to wake her so we just enjoy he moment.
In 2004 I found Beachbody and loved working out. Then in 2010 I found out I was anemic and it changed so much for me. I am still battling with my anemia. The doctors where actually surprised the workouts I was able to do with my numbers being so low. I spent so many years having testing done that I got tired of having needles stuck in my arms. It is an absolute mystery as to why my numbers have not gone back to normal. Thanks to Google I have found that I am not alone. I don’t know if that makes me feel any better.
I will fast forward to now and let you know that I have been in a “funk” for a few months now. I have learned how seem fine at work. I look for glimpses of happy, which most of the time comes from Willow. I have tried to get back into working out as I am currently at the highest weight I have ever been. I am sure that is playing a factor too. I just am not finding the joy in it like I have in the past. I have also started a new eating program, which I do feel better eating more clean. I should also share that I am an empath. I can pick up on other’s energies, so if you are cranky I could become that way too. Lately I have had a hard time grounding myself so picking up others energies has been heightened. I am going to a body, mind and wellness expo next weekend. I need to get myself balanced so I can get myself grounded.
I am also looking at finishing my training in Reiki and learning how to do animal Reiki. My sister told me that I could go to shelters and spend time with the animals and do energy work there. I never knew that was possible. That actually appealed to me and I think it may be a way to help me find something that could add some happy back into my life.
I want to do more with my website and continue to make things for animals and for those that want to help balance their chakras or clear the energy in their homes through candles. I need to get my energy right first so I can put the good energy into the candles.
I may be writing this for myself and that is fine. I think it is time I start writing things down so I can get on the right path back to me. If along the way anything I figure out helps someone else that would be awesome.